Adolè is a small village by the lake where my mother grew up. It embodies in this story my continuous journey to “Self”. Let’s sail together along the tortuous river that leads to It. The beginning might be painful, but trust me, peace will come tagging along.

River Shore

Hopital Schweitzer

Where do we begin?

Right at that moment when you feel lost and empty. That moment when shopping, eating, sex or any other coping mechanism you would have found by now to feed your emptiness temporarily is no longer working.
Yes, in the darkness of your solitude, alone with the chains, pains and self-destructive thoughts.

When you are in bed, thinking, ‘Oh, if I die now, will people notice, or will I become another news story where your landlord found out you’re dead because you’re no longer paying his rent?’
When waking up in the morning seems like another day in hell. Going to bed is still hell because your brain has decided to torture you with useless thoughts (difference between mozzarella and burrata at 2 AM)
Does any of this ring a bell to anyone?

If it does, that means you’re automated by society standards and bound to all sorts of obligations.
While experiencing all that, you still have to go to work/school and take care of your spouse, offspring or family members. So you put on that familiar face that everyone has in the subway. You shrug down your throat all your emotional baggage (damaging your throat chakra at the same time), further down your heart (then it becomes rigid), and all the way down to your centre (stomach and all the area around) womb if you’re a woman.

The unpleasant process of throwing that emotional baggage down to your centre also has another effect. Remember your throat was hurt, right? You now have difficulties speaking up for yourself, asking for help, and expressing yourself. To that, you react by either being quiet or by going full range out to compensate. Either way, those states are just opposite polarities of the same thing.
Your heart has also become so rigid that at the mere emotion, you either go panic attack mode, barking at others to compensate or worse, you keep with the shrugging…

You are in some way disconnected from your body’s needs. You need to make peace and face yourself.

Will you hop on with me for the next stop? There’s hope on the river

Step 1: The Beginning

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